More Than You Think You Are

One of my favorite ways to hear God is through lyrics. Especially from songs that are secular and I’ve heard before. I realize that this mostly happens with love songs, but God is in love with us, so it makes sense. Last night I was listening to Matchbox Twenty, because I was in the mood for one of my favorite albums. And this is what I heard...

I’m here for the hard times 

the straight to your heart times

whenever it ain’t easy

you can stand up against me

and maybe rely on me

and cry on me

Praise God for knowing how to tell me something exactly when I need to hear it. Then two songs later one of my favorites came on. Who knows how many times I’ve heard it before. But tonight it took on a completely different meaning, and it ended up turning into a crazy drama about me chasing God, His response, the enemy lying to me, and a choir joined in at one point. Pretty insane. 

That explanation does this experience no justice, but as Mr. Thomas later said in another song, “somehow the right thing to say just won’t come out.” I’ve been having that problem recently. With all of the things going through my mind you’d think I’d have a lot to say, but when I finally have the chance, I don’t even know what to talk about. It’s weird, and frustrating. But I realized that I don’t always speak my mind because I’m afraid that nobody will understand me, which would prove that it’s up to me to figure stuff out. So then I don’t say anything, and end up working through things on my own anyways. I confuse myself sometimes. 

i wonder how you sleep

i wonder what you think of me

if i could go back, would you have ever been with me?

i want you to be uneased

i want you to remember

i want you to believe in me

i want you on my side

come on and lay it down

i’ve always been with you

here and now

give all that’s within you

be my savior

and i’ll be your downfall

here we go again

ashamed of being broken in

we’re getting off track

i want to get you back again

i want you to trouble me

i wanted you to linger

i want you to agree with me

i want so much so bad

come on and lay it down

i’ve always been with you

here and now

give all that’s within you

be my savior

and i’ll be your downfall

be my savior

Only Love Can Save Us Now

Come Lay Me Down

Only Love Can Save Us Now

i’ll be your downfall

Only Love Can Save Us Now

Love Save Me Now

lay it down

i’ve always been with you

hear me now

with all that’s within you

be my savior

and i’ll be your downfall

now i’m back on my own

lift my feet, they’re like made of stone

i’ll make you go where i go

it’s killing me

can i take you home?

well i’m coming home on my back

is it me or is she painted black?

let me be your downfall

let me be your downfall, baby